ഒരു സൂപ്പർ മൂൺ രാത്രി

ധനു മാസ പൗർണമി ഒരു പ്രത്യേക അനുഭൂതി തന്നെ.
മടിയും ക്ഷീണവും എന്നെ പുറത്ത് ഇറങ്ങാൻ അനുവദിച്ചില്ല.

എങ്കിലും പക്ഷി മൃഗാദികളുടെ നില തെറ്റിക്കുന്ന
ഭീമൻ നിലാവാണ് പുറത്തെന്ന് നല്ല ബോധ്യമുണ്ട് കിടക്കുമ്പോൾ.

പല തവണ ഓടി പുറത്തേക്ക് പോവാൻ തോന്നിയെങ്കിലും ശരീരം അനുവദിച്ചില്ല,
ആ പോട്ടെ! എന്നോർത്ത് ഉറങ്ങാൻ തുടങ്ങി.

ചന്ദ്രശോഭ കണ്ട് നേരം വെളുത്തു എന്ന് കരുതിയ
കാക്കകളുടെയും കുയിലുകളുടെയും കലപില
അല്പം ഉറങ്ങി പോയ എന്നെയും തെറ്റിദ്ധരിപ്പിച്ചു
സമയം ഇത്രയുമായോ എന്നോർത്ത് എണീറ്റൊന്ന് നോക്കേണ്ടി വന്നു
സമയം ഒരു മണി,
നിശീഥം
എന്നാൽ ബ്രഹ്മമുഹൂർത്തതിനും പ്രഭാതത്തിനും ഇടയിലുള്ള അതേ ഭംഗി.

കേട്ട ശബ്ദങ്ങളുടെ ഭംഗി ആസ്വദിക്കാൻ
ഫാൻ ഓഫ്‌ ആക്കി കാത് കൂർപ്പിച്ചൊന്ന് കിടന്നു.
കാറ്റത്ത് പാറി മാറി നിന്ന രണ്ട് പാട്ടുകാര് ഓരോ ചെവിയും തേടി വന്നു
ആദ്യം ദേഷ്യം വന്നെങ്കിലും ഇവരെന്തായീ പാടുന്നതെന്ന് ശ്രദ്ധിച്ചാലോ
എന്നൊരു ഭ്രാന്തു തോന്നി
അനങ്ങാതെ കിടന്ന് രണ്ടു ചെവിയിലും പാട്ട് കേട്ടു,
തെല്ലനങ്ങാതെ കിടക്കാനും ദേഷ്യം നിയന്ത്രിക്കാനും
വിചാരിച്ചതിലും ബുദ്ധിമുട്ടായിരുന്നു.
ചെവികല്ല് രണ്ടും മുഴങ്ങി പൊട്ടാറായി
എന്ന് തോന്നിയപ്പോൾ രണ്ടിനേയും ആട്ടിയോടിച്ചു

അല്പ സമയം ശാന്തം.
കാക്കയുടെ ശബ്ദം ഒന്നു ശ്രദ്ധിച്ചു,
ആദ്യമോർത്തു സമയം തെറ്റി കണ്ടതിന്റെ പരാതി പറച്ചിൽ ആവുമോയെന്ന്
പക്ഷെ പിന്നീട് ശ്രദ്ധിച്ചപ്പോ അതങ്ങനെയല്ലായെന്ന് മനസ്സിലായി
രാവിലേയെന്ന പോലെ മെല്ലെ മെല്ലെ ഉള്ള കൂക്കൽ
ഉണർവിന്റെ ശബ്‍ദം
അതതിമധുരമാക്കാൻ ഇടയിലൂടെ കുയിലും
എവിടെയോ ഉപ്പനും ഉണ്ടെന്ന് തോന്നുന്നു
എന്നാൽ രാവിലെ കേൾക്കാൻ ആവാത്ത
പശ്ചാത്തല സംഗീതം സമർപ്പിച്ച് ചീവീടുകളുമുണ്ട്.
ആകെ മൊത്തം വല്ലാത്ത ഒരു ഭംഗി
ഇതിന് മുൻപ് ഈ ജന്മത്തിൽ ഇത് ആസ്വദിച്ചിട്ടുണ്ടോ എന്നറിയില്ല

ആസ്വാദനം മുഴുകിപ്പിക്കും മുന്നേ
പായിച്ചു വിട്ട പാട്ടുകാർ തിരിച്ചെത്തി
മുന്നത്തെ ക്ഷമ ഇത്തവണ കാട്ടിയില്ല
ഉടൻ തന്നെ വീണ്ടും പായിച്ചു രണ്ടിനേം

അല്പസമയം കൂടെ എല്ലാ ശബ്ദങ്ങളും ഒന്ന് ഒപ്പിയെടുത്ത ശേഷം
ഫാൻ വീണ്ടും ഓണാക്കി കിടന്നു
രാവിലെ അഞ്ചരക്ക് എണീക്കണം എന്നൊരു ആഗ്രഹം തോന്നി,
രാവിലെയും ഇവർക്ക് ഇങ്ങനെ പാടാൻ ആരോഗ്യം കാണുമോ എന്ന കൗതുകം
പക്ഷെ എണീക്കാൻ എനിക്ക് ആരോഗ്യം കാണില്ല എന്ന ബോധ്യത്തിൽ
നല്ല സ്വപ്നങ്ങൾ തേടിയെത്തട്ടെ എന്ന് ആഗ്രഹിച്ചുകൊണ്ട് കണ്ണടച്ചു.

ശുഭരാത്രി.

നിതിൻ
ജനു 3, 2026

Re-entry?

 

It's been over six years since I have last written here. Why did I stop writing? arriving at an answer would require a few pages of writing in itself, but it would still feel unclear. Unlike the last time my words made it here, now a good portion of creations are outsourced to Alien Intelligences. In one of my first posts so many years back at least 10 years back, I boasted that "now I am writing alone but who knows I might have robots writing for me someday". Little did I know that it was going to be an everyday reality in less than a decade. The information tsunami has got pretty much everyone suffocating. At the time when google+ was at its peak, I remember fighting in comment section with someone over AI doing things is not creativity, I held to the point AI is just rearranging pieces it knows and calls it creativity, but humans fundamentally come up with something different, I kept saying there is a secret sauce to human creativity. I failed the argument to someone across the globe proving to me that humans are doing nothing other than what AI did, they learn and they reproduce. The world is now at a place where the freely and openly accessible AI can create much better content than most people could ever imagine in their lifetimes. There is a part of me still saying, no we are still missing the secret sauce? Can I prove it? No.

Question now is not whether to use AI or not but is there something only humans can still come up with or even is there something humans should keep doing no matter how advanced the AI becomes. In pursuit of it we might stumble on our secret sauce. I want to focus on the second question since the first is too far-fetched for now. There is a theme of creation as not a process of producing an output but a journey or exploration. The creative process as we call it. When you think of creative process as a production line, AI definitely does a much better job at it, meaning we are not a competition and we are jobless considering most content creations (we prompt and curate, but still). 

Now, I am not abandoning the previous line of thought there but approaching from a different angle. While in school, I remember teachers saying don't google much, students should use the library to find your answers, what are teachers saying to students now? There is a subtle "cutting noise creates noise" contradiction that happens when technology grows. Let's say you didn't have a lot of technology nor a library to get some information. One practical solution would be for you to ask around and figure out, you will ask and ask, somebody will say somebody else knows this and we would be in a pursuit of answers. Finding answers were a process, a journey. If this was something you could find in a library, you would still need to go through multiple references, maybe visit multiple libraries etc... There was definitely noise that didn't contribute to the final answer. But some of those noise which integrated into background knowledge or experience that builds up intuition of the world. When search engines came, we cut out most of these noise, more efficient. Now with AI, you don't even have to open those top 10 links from Google's 1st page or hit that I am feeling lucky button once you are tired. The path of least resistance to the answer. The process is linear, narrow, sharp, efficient. Great answers, well-articulated, well studied and updated. How is it that we cut almost all of the noise in the journey to answers but submerged the whole world in the noise tsunami? The path of least resistance probably. Creation for sake of output, path to output is the least resistance than the journey taken.  

I still believe that creative process in general shouldn't be a production line, it should be a messy journey with a lot of noise. A journey that can throw us off the tangent into something bigger or even meaningful. I am pretty sure as humans there were times when you were in pursuit of something, but on the road, you experienced something that told you, this was all destiny, this experience is what was meant for me with this journey and not the output itself. Things that grew into something bigger something better. A story to tell. Creative process is an exploration in chaos. But in all that chaos there are some guiding principles of ego, identification of self, personal values. A complex mixture of layered identities weighing in every micro-exposure to this reality, a nervous system that can independently signal coherence of self. Probably the secret sauce was never the originality but a system that feels and responds, a system that can work without clear answers or closures, a system optimized not for the answers itself but the journey. 

Something From Nothing

 It's very possible that at least once you have thought, Hen or the Egg, Which came first?? It was my pleasure thinking about this question. If you answer Hen then you need an Egg, if you answer Egg you need a Hen, precisely two of them to make an egg. But then some Darwin fans would come up with a scientific-looking explanation where they explain the "the egg came first, some other species lays this eggs and there was enough mutation  in those eggs that created the first hens, so without doubt the eggs came first". Well somewhat a good explanation. But the spirit of this question is essentially a deep rooted question, What was anything created from? 

Its very easy for us to imagine that everything comes from something else, the fruits came from the trees, trees came from the seed, which was in another fruit created by another tree which was maybe a less mutated version which came from another and so on we can trace back to the roots of the first life on this planet, and if you still wanna dig deep you can reach the point that we all just started off of the planet, so where did the planet come from, well its physics, its star dust and it?? this will put you back into the long-told story or theory of big bang. It all started from a singularity. It would put you in trouble to ask further. You ask what created the Singularity and you could just answer God, but the curious ones can still ask what created the God?

You see the pattern. whatever I point you to, you can still dig deeper to the point that I get angry and quit the conversation. This naturally brings up the question what was at first?? Can something be created out of nothing? That's not even imaginable. First of all how do you imagine nothingness? The closest was the outer space which we already know is "not a nothing".  I don't know what this paradox is called, but its definitely one interesting paradox to spend your weekend on.  Trying to imagine "nothing", if I try to imagine "nothing" and I succeed then what did I imagine, the thought itself became something...

One simple explanation to calm my thoughts was an idea "the creation itself is the property of nothingness", no proofs, no claims, just a speculation. But the model of creation in my thought experiments went well when creation was a property of "nothing". OKAY!! What does that mean??

Well! let me put it this way, read it and let it sink... "When there is nothing, it creates something", if you ponder at nothingness you will understand that its the "thing"(well its no thing) with most number of possibilities in a reality. Its like a blank page, it can have Monalisa or Mozart or Relativity or anything, its full of possibilities and its undoubtedly the "thing"(nothing) with the most number of possibilities or essentially the true infinite possibility in the entire existence. So creation itself is a property of the nothing-ness. Think about it, its really cool down this path.

Now this gives one additional perk to "original" artists. Whenever we say we come up with something original its logical to imagine that it came as a permutation of a lot of other things. In fact you could just hand me over a dictionary and tell me everything ever written is in there. But what permutation do I choose? What is its motivation? Is something truly original possible?? If its possible to create a state of "nothing" maybe internally then a truly original work is possible, because the nothing-ness is a true singularity of infinite possibilities, so original work is a consequence of reaching "nothing".  All this sounds really funny, nothing of this article has any scientific light in it, its very speculative, but the mind models that we can create with these properties are definitely a real piece of fun and art. 

Comprehending the Infinite with the Finite

 Can we comprehend the Infinite sources with a finite apparatus?

Is there a constant time search function that works on  an infinite set?

Or Let's ask it this way?

Can a human or any entity ever acquire the infinitely large repository of knowledge on this existence?

Or in a more practical question, can an AI ever comprehend the seemingly infinite amount of knowledge a Human has, for at one point to become like a human??

These are some questions I have been pondering upon for a few days now. Obviously the Infinite is very relative in these terms but I definitely don't want a clear answer yet, but I wanted to explore this. I am brainstorming on ways to proceed with this, maybe scientifically if its ever possible.

Lets start with some observation. There is seemingly infinite things to learn about in this reality or all of the existence. The apparatus we use to get information about the world are our sensory input. Be it any sensors natural or artificial there is a maximum bandwidth with which it can capture information. Even if all our senses are 100% active every minute of our life, there is still a doubt whether we can capture the infinite, because again the sensor bandwidth is finite. If we are reading from text, then obviously there is another bottleneck of the amount of concepts you can get per sentence and the time it requires to read and comprehend all that. So, is this ever possible ?

My initial intuitions are, 

1.  Can we bypass the finite apparatus ? Is there a more direct way to all the repository of knowledge in this existence ? Maybe something like what the Spiritual Gurus say. This concept maybe translated to a constant time search function that can work on an open domain.

2. Another way is to take out Time from the equation, the finite amount of time of our life is one bottleneck that makes our apparatus finite, and its time with which we define a rate. If it takes no time to get information or let's say everything happens simultaneously then we are left with an infinite capability apparatus as well, so we can hypothesise that it can capture the infinite as well.

These are very speculative ideas, but that's how I like it. The process of exploration can start with a definition then constantly updating it to the point that the definition is clear and self-expressive. This is the way spiritually or scientifically. Also the mathematical question I posed is expected to have some past explorations on it. As you might know the idea of Turing Machine and universal computation. People were generally curious of the infinite unknown from time immemorial. I am going to do some research on the ideas of infinite domains now. And at the same time also look at spiritual ideas or whatever it is for a motivation for the answer now.

Best apps from F-Droid

[refined: March 08, 2026] [unfinished]

I have been an open-source enthusiast for years. Been a Debian user for years now and use Android phones. How much "free" Android itself is a question we have to deal in detail later. But for now I am going to focus on Open source Android applications alone.

#	App	Description	Last Updated
1	NewPipe	An Open source Youtube client with a lot of features.
2	Aurora Store	No
3	AndOTP	No	@twitter

Why should we preserve languages ?

[unfinished]

A clipping from the famous movie "Arrival".  The movie strictly speaks about a strong form of the Sapir-Whorf hypothesis or the theory of linguistic relativity
From Wikipedia

The strong version says that language determines thought and that linguistic categories limit and determine cognitive categories.

Linguistic philosophers like Eric Lenneberg, Noam Chomsky, and Steven Pinker have criticized the Whorfian hypothesis and do not accept most of the inferences about language and behavior put forth by Whorf. They claim that his conclusions are speculative since they are based on anecdotal evidence and not on results of empirical studies.

The strong form of the theory, be it right or wrong should produce a chance that some kind of cognitive capabilities might be lost when some languages are lost. So its safe to keep languages safe. Last time I checked new languages are not in active making, its just better to preserve the existing ones. But what happens when languages like English which are de-facto standard nowadays consume other languages. Like Indian languages. India has a very rich repository of languages, formed from very different roots. But due to lack of usage of these languages now and the failure to update vocabulary on par with the new improvements have made all our languages stagnant and require an immediate attention

Many people have responded to this. For example ICANN accepted a new list of 16 languages for domain names which does include Malayalam, Hindi, Kannada, Tamil etc... SMC ( Swathanthra Malayalam Computing ) does a lot of work in this direction to reate computing tools for Malayalam.

*** THIS ARTICLE IS FAR FROM COMPLETION***

I'm BACK

A new dimension in the matrix of my reality took spotlight, the light was so intense that it collapsed all other dimensions into the one.  

An untimely match in Facebook's stadium

--EDIT--
Google has discontinued Allo and requested its users to move on to Google Messages https://messages.google.com/ on December 7, 2018.

Google introduced Allo in September of 2016 and for me it feels like more of a fancy project than a serious competition to
Facebook's Whatsapp. I didn't want to make a deep technical comparison. But would like to just look at two of them from
user's point of view.

First things first, Whatsapp was first of its kind app with its first release in 2009 and the techies of the time made a fast rate of adoption of it, which also might have accelerated the common-user adoption of Whatsapp at the time. This was around the time there was a hype in sales of smartphones in most developing countries. And you know most people if they get something working, then they don't usually care about anything else. They are going to stick with it for the rest of the life. I am talking about common people who have less or no interest in exploring new technology. So they got their smartphones and heard of Whatsapp and installed it and that's it no stimuli and flashy ads displaying revolutionary technology in messaging applications didn't stop them from using Whatsapp and guess what, its more tricky. The more user base they got over years, the more the ones who already had joined needed to stay. Or put in better words you can always ask for anyone's whatsapp number confidently without asking them first whether they have whatsapp. Its like asking people to "Google" stuff without needing explain what Google is. Whatsapp has more or less become a defacto standard in Messaging applications.

When you got to sell something you have to first make people believe they need it. This is the part Google might be missing in the equation for Allo. Allo brings you the virtual assistant and all those flashy AI stuff into your messaging environment. But who really needs all these stuff when you just need to message your friends yourself. You don't need to have an AI to do it, right? Well its bound to change, What if you can ask your messenger to book a room in a hotel or book an appointment with Doctor or such common things? It's going to happen soon. Allo doesn't have it yet but they might bring these kind of things soon. When these things are brought to common market and it becomes a too obvious thing, that's when those "sticky people" might switch to something like Allo as their primary messaging application.

Let's just go through those features Allo has over Whatsapp. Stickers, self-destructive messages, Smart Reply, Virtual Assistant and an Incognito chat. Stickers are  pretty fun just to be creative and to speak louder. Self-destructive messages, well hmm yeah it sounds like some CIA stuff, but yeah its here available for you on Allo. Smart replies are close to those scenarios. There are times all you have answer are Thank you, Great, Wonderful and all such single word complementaries. Smart reply lets you do it with just a touch and no typing. Virtual Assistant lets you plan things with your friends and do a lot more things, I am still testing it myself. And Incognito chat, I dont know why they are giving an explicit option to make your chats secure, i mean why can't they make it secure by default.

So that's about it, the features. The main lacking in Allo might be Calls. Yeah those Whatsapp calls, you don't get it in Allo. But Google has balanced this with Allo's partner app Duo for video and audio calling.

For the technical side, as a rule of thumb you can say that Whatsapp is more secure. When it comes to encryption the truth is you should always prefer the time tested ones over the brand new one and Allo also doesn't by default give you end-to-end encryption.

How would I conclude this? Don't ditch Whatsapp yet for Allo. Allo is not yet ready to be you primary messenger. But its great for exploration of the new possibilites and get a glimpse of what the future of messaging will be.